Our arrival into Tulsa occurred at sunset. Sunsets in Oklahoma can be quite breathtaking if the west Tulsa refinery fumes don’t make you choke to death first. My first year living in the mountains impacted me in the most profound ways. Imagine a whole year of breathing and consuming clean, non-toxic, nourishing air and water. No refineries, no lingering in heavy traffic sucking on exhaust fumes. No air conditioning with dust filled filters to clean. My cells came alive, my skin cleared up, my body weight decreased and my overall vitality increased ten-fold.
Within the first week of our visit here, my husband and I were plagued with intense fever and illness, allergy issues, breathing problems, skin breakouts, and fatigue. As the fevers have subsided, the other issues continue to persist. Striving to find a state of balanced health has been more of a struggle to stay afloat, in this cess-pool of a city.
The cells in my body do not feel alive here. They feel suffocated by the heavy energy, the massive air pollution, and the overall toxicity of this place. Crime, poverty, filthy parks, dangerously stressful driving conditions and exhaust fumes are certainly playing their part too. Coming “home” to family has also had its fair share of toxic contributions; providing another truly awakening experience.
These circumstances are certainly unfortunate hurdles; yet they have indeed become gifts of clarity. This journey was not a mistake, it is in fact one of the most eye opening experiences yet. I have obtained valuable medicine and received unexpected guidance for resolving a health issue. 11:11 is a frequently seen good sign. My recent trip out of state to meet my in-laws awakened me to my new role as an aunt, reminding me of the power of being a good role model. The sense of inner peace that floods over me during my work days at the yoga studio remind me of the importance of my gift as a healer in this community. I have been showered with love, fully embraced, and honored to be in the presence of such luminescent friends and clients.
Preserving and maintaing this joyful, healthy life takes work. There is no room for polluted environments in my future. There is no room for toxic relationships. I am taking a stand for the betterment of my life and the life of my future family. Setting healthy boundaries is key and seems to be at the forefront of this trip. There seems to always be some level of external resistance that occurs when the act of setting boundaries is put into place. I enlisted the help of a shaman, who has assisted me before in resolving the conflicts within the karmic fields that no longer serve the evolution of my existence. Over the past 12 years I have made it my personal practice to continuously make positive changes that reflect the path my life is heading.
I am awake to the truth, I embrace the change that must be made, and I am grateful for this gift of clarity. Resolving and evolving..praise goddesses <3 span="">
